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Ellie Kemper

by Spring 2005

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1.
Malon 03:18
Limbic atrophy Waking up inside your arms As a remedy Seventeen was yesterday I would throw it all away for you I’ll close my eyes And wait by the willow tree outside, and Dream that you’re safe in my mind They…They come down from the heavens when the air gets colder. One night a year, They appear in a bright, shining ball That falls from the moonlit sky Hundreds of creatures, like the tendrils of God, Streak across the twilight until They eclipse my heart And I feel alive once again. I feel alive once again I feel alive once again I feel alive again
2.
Feel the warmth of your breath through the veil Is it frightening? And in light of the things I’d said before I could have known you Better than you wanted me to Imprinted in my mind I’ll keep you dissatisfied Just go get lost in the woods again So I can have a reason to hurt again Have intention to lie again So I can have the passion to breathe again But I’ve said too much…
3.
Recursion 04:27
Arsenic cloud float on It’s an ether for me I can’t breathe the smog The sky refracting blood The sundown, down, down, down, down Toxin bloom I feel the pages torn out Missing context about The summer dies again I’ll grieve but then forget I’ll wish for warmth only when I feel the winter’s breath The summer dies again I’ll grieve but then forget I’ll wish for warmth only when I feel the winter’s breath I’ll get scared and Overhaul my life again Recursion The summer dies again I’ll grieve but then forget I’ll wish for warmth only when I feel the winter’s breath The summer dies again I’ll grieve but then forget I’ll wish for warmth only when I feel the winter’s breath I’ll get scared and Overhaul my life again Recursion
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Pando 01:10
Pando, how deep do your roots go? How many times have you watched your friends decay? Withered branches fall in patterns underlaid But you stay Teach me your ways
6.
I fashion nostalgia into a blade While I consecrate my weary mind in the flame Resolve to understand Where the gas to the pilot light leads & if I can Put it out
7.
Separate me from the shore Tendencies lead me to the door What’s more, I’ve already sunk in my head Jettison Jettison Jettison Something whirl me off the reef I recognize the patterns which I seek They are one, the needle pulls tight on the thread Jettison Jettison Jettison The beach is harsh for you The beach is harsh for you
8.
I still don’t want you to know how I found God in my sleep If not God, then a greater sense of infirmity Cause & effect, I can’t recall the rest Secular dream into spiritual being
9.
Romani 01:26
10.
The impact left a mark The scarred remains of long ago, I’m starting to Recognize in the light of the moon I’m sowing the seeds that I planted into Broken ground Weighed down Way down Incarcerate my heart Bury the key Unearth the crater again History repeats

about

10 more songs from a bedroom on a mountain in a never-ending winter

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Recursion: anything that, in happening, causes itself to happen again.

“Ellie Kemper” is a collection of songs that I wrote, recorded, and mixed over the span of 8 months, September 2022 - April 2023. While I would hope these songs speak to you in whatever way is most meaningful, to me these songs are about deconstructing (and finding comfort in the balance between) natural patterns of competing recursive forces: progress & regress, love & hate, order & chaos, growth & decay, life & death.

I have spent much of my life so far in what I perceived as a black-or-white, all-or-nothing existence. Over the years, rigorous religious conditioning combined with the intricacies of being neurodivergent had crafted a thick monochromatic lens in which I viewed both the world & myself. I saw the notion of “progress” as a straight line pointing right to perfection, and “regress” as any deviation from that inherently impossible path. With such an understanding, perceived failure and subsequent self-hatred were inevitable, and with time they became cyclical, repetitive, recursive. When I first started going to therapy last summer, I could feel cracks in this lens begin to form, with complex layers of color starting to pour through for the first time. Today, much of that color is still dull - but every other day It seems like I’m noticing a new rich shade of beautiful balance. Peace & love, Jacob

credits

released May 12, 2023

JACOB R. WEST (c h point)
guitar, bass, cello, vocals, programming, songwriting, mixing, producer

JAMES WITTE-COOK (Elder Jack)
saxophone, clarinet, flute, piano, upright bass, guitar, effects, co-producer
instagram.com/jameswittecook/

JASMINE MCELROY (exciting!!excellent!!)
LSDj, songwriting [track 2]
excitingexcellent.bandcamp.com

ANGUEL SANCHEZ (Lobsterfight)
piano, songwriting [track 4]
lobsterfight.bandcamp.com

GYN SHIN (Asian Glow)
drums, bass, guitar, synths, songwriting [track 10]
dbeatdropdeadpowerhead.bandcamp.com

JANE BERGE
merch artwork, creative co-director
instagram.com/paulblartmallartt/

DAN MÉLIZAN (lifemoves.png)
logo & map insert artwork
instagram.com/lifemoves.png/

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c h point Orem, Utah

Emo video game nostalgia fever dream DIY metaproject by
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